Rockstar played the Viper Room the other night.. and all i could think was..
"how did i get myself into this shit again?"
He was so cute in is little rockstar outfit and freshly dyed hair.. that left a purple ring in the hotel sink...and ruined multiple hotel towels... i know the maids are shaking thier heads as they try to scrub it out....his shades were in place ..and they sounded great..i was proud of them..the whole band ..not just my little rockstar..
This is not the first rockstar ive dated..the last one... well ...he was a pseudo rockstar..more " alt country rockstar"..i thought it was going pretty good ...until i saw in (insert name of crappy magazine here) that he had married somebody else..
sooo..guess thats why i haven't heard from him.. dumb shit was pretty busy getting married etc etc...
oh well..it wasn't a big deal.. i like to think this one isn't a big deal either... but it can be hard not to get carried away when they are so cute..and they write you little songs..and they dedicate shit to you from the stage ... but....ive been down this road before... im always telling the Ditsy Little Tart...that this Rockstar thing wont work. she is always rooting for him! lol..and i am ALWAYS pushing him back..keeping him at arms length...not letting him get too close.... the irony is.... that is exactly why he likes me so much!..im the one that he cant seem to figure out... who isn't impressed with his tour bus..ive been on nicer.. i don't always show up to see the show... i don't call him, i don't text him, i don't email him, i don't care if he sleeps with groupie chix (just be safe..you don't need any baby's mamas), basically..i just don't let myself care at all.... i just try to appreciate our time together for what it is... fun ... and i never expect it to last beyond the last time we saw each other...
but by now ..well... a good deal of time has slipped past while i wasn't really paying attention.. we have been "hanging out" for a couple of years...and well...we talk at least once a week when he is on the road. which is almost always....
life on the road sux.. my whole family is in the music industry..and ive been around touring bands since.... Supertramp stayed at our house on their "breakfast in america" tour......lol (i know, i know this post is gonna date me! but i was just a teeny thing then!! ) for every great show at the viper room there are 10 bad shows in (insert bullshit town) where only 20 folks show up.. guys on tour.. well it is kinda like soldiers doing a tour of duty.. long periods of boredom, shitty accommodations, crappy food, no chicks...punctuated by brief bursts of addictive adrenaline rushes... during the long boring times..soldiers write letters home to sweethearts..and rockstars write songs... In both cases the girls end up getting idealized ....and well...sometimes you have to read between the lines..sometimes the things they say or write aren't quite what they mean..over the years i have learned to speak a little bit of "Rockstar"
Rockstar: "I miss you soo much"
Translation: "I'm lonely ..and your the only one i know who is still awake"
Rockstar: "I wish you had come out and gone to the show at (insert lame club name here)"-
Translation: "There was only 1 good looking chick ..and she liked (insert other band member here)"
Rockstar: "The hotel they booked us in (insert crap town here) looks like a nightmare".
Translation: "Can you use your american express points to get us a night or two @ (insert expensive hotel chain here)?"
Rockstar: "The club owner/promoter was a real dick"
Translation: "He had a hot girlfriend who was into me..but he ruined my chance to get in her pants"
Rockstar: "tonights show was great"
Translation: "the club paid us cash"
Rockstar: "There was a huge crowd"
Translation: "there were enough girls for everyone in the band to score"
Rockstar: "The tour manager is an (insert creative string of expletives)"
Translation: "another band - that is better than us- has been added to the bill"
The viper room...
it's a good room, it was a good show, i like being behind the velvet rope, but the truth is..it wont work.. and its just a little game we play...and i think i'm gonna have to get up from the table cause i like to quit while im up.. and it looks like one more hand might put the stakes up higher than i can afford to gamble.
xoxo
sb
