It is really hard to date wealthy men..
they are used to getting what they want ..when they want..
and .. they are really used to people doing what they ask them to... when they ask them to..
I had lunch with SC last weekend (Sat the 4th)..
he seemed particularly sad, he's a closet republican soo im sure he could feel the whipping that was coming on.... he said he was sorry and he fucked up and blah blah blah... and i sat there with a cup of chili and listened..
i'm good at that..
i identify what people need and ..try to give it to them..
he needed me to listen and he needed to apologize... so i let him
but...why im really proud of myself is..because when he passed me the keys to his new beach condo and told me to use it whenever i wanted...
i passed them back..
..it is smaller than his cottage... but only a few miles away... so ...i definitely felt like he was "setting me up" with my own place so i would come back down there.. and well..
NOT..
over means over...
it doesn't mean..over til you hook me up in condo with a view of the atlantic...
but it is hard...when someone with real resources decides to pursue you.. well.. they can be persuasive.. and you have to ask yourself...
am i here because i want to spend time with this person..or am i here cause i wanted to spend the weekend in paris ...
and what ratio of the two is acceptable......where is the tipping point........ that turns you into one of The Girls Next Door??
sooooo.. basically i KNOW he doesn't REALLY want me..he just wants to check me off his "things to do" list.. and.. im not ok with that.. he just is feeling a little sore..cause hes seen me round town with a new boy.(who is remaining nameless for now but is an excellent chef and soo cute im dying to post a pic here!!)... and im sure that stings a little..
sooo.. after lunch he walked me home and asked to come in... but i said
NO.. we're Friends .... no benefits!!
but i was laughing and he was too... and it was the first time id seen him smile in ages... and then as he walked away he tossed the keys at me again..
" as a FRIEND do me favor and take 'em...no strings...take anybody you like..enjoy yourselves.. i don't need it & i wont be down that way till spring"
and then..just to prove he knows me....
"The liquor cabinet is full and the sheets are Frette"
damn damn damn... who needs a vacation???
xoxo
sb
