Be my Dream..

this is like a dream baby
too many sleepless nights staring into
nowhere
too many silent cries trap me in this
nightmare
i close my eyes and try to find
someone to talk to
and there you are
i see your face
i put my arms around you
be my dream baby
come on
dream on
this is like a dream
this is like a dream baby
too many passive dreams taking us to
nowhere
too many voices tell us this is not a
love affair.....
TKK

I'm not gonna read his stuff anymore!... i mean..he knows i read it..he posts it up for everyone.. and since i am NOT about to tell him about this blog!! I think its only fair if i stop checking in on some of his ongoing projects...
I'm talking bout the Writer...
i have no idea why i like him soo much??! I mean i don't really like anybody! after you reach a certain point in your life you really find it hard to put up with other peoples dumbass ways idiosyncrasies. While i get along with most everyone i don't REALLY LIKE very many folks...I'm more the "tons of acquaintances but only a few close REAL friends" kinda person. For some reason i liked him right away..He is not particularly good looking, or rich & powerful, or accomplished (in the traditional sense of the word), or any of the things that would generally make a girl swoon (FUCK! did i just type swoon..i've lost my shit)..I think its cause he is such a NORMAL.. down to earth guy..no pretension. it drives me mad sexy!!! i haven't met such an honest person in sooo long..I gotta stop going to LA! if most everyone you meet is from either DC or LA ... well you can imagine the inferiority complexes you have to deal with! sooo here he is.. all .. exposed .. and  raw ..and flawed..very flawed.....(but not in that "tortured artist" way - just in a- hi, this is me and i'm not particularly good at x y or z- way) ... and genuinely kind, did i mention he is genuinely concerned about people..not just the ones close to him ..he is the kinda guy that would stop if you had a flat tire or were in crisis, he doesn't shy away from people in need.. when was the last time you met anyone like that??..  he is just himself with not a thing to prove to anybody... it is amazingly sexy.. ANYWAY.. This is not the kind of guy that usually asks me out..  i always get asked out by fellas looking more for...uumm..well other stuff.

soooo i was really happy to see the Writer had tried several times to IM me the other day. oohh! i think..maybe he is still interested! sooo against my better judgment i peeked at his online journal.. and DAMN.. hes been going out with somebody else while i've been outta town, and hitting it off apparently!..shit! i travel too much, this always happens.. i certainly don't expect him to sit at home but for some reason (and this generally just doesn't happen) i cared a little bit!

sooo... im gonna need a 3 vodka tonics to cry in when i get home!  Maybe im just being a bit girly whiny here..he DID ask me out on Wed. & he knows im seeing other folks.. OR MAYBE..and i am reaching here...maybe he wants to date a NORMAL chick!
WHATEVER...